I have tried to write this post twice and each time Tumblr has deleted it. I am trying one final time.

I am 37 yrs old. Do I want to have a baby or not? This is a question I ask myself time and time again.

I am an artist. I am independent and creative and intelligent and I love making things. It…

I understand what you are saying. Completely. I am also selfish and enjoy my life as is. But I had those feelings too, especially in the last year or so.

I finally thought about those feelings and started weighing things out. And I (and my husband) have decided to try for a baby.

If it happens, great. If it doesn’t happen well, I tried and maybe things were ok as is. (That was really hard to type. Oof.)

And if you do have a kid, you are still you. You don’t disappear, you can still have your life and interests, there will just be some juggling. It’s healthy to not give yourself up and focus everything on the kid because they will grow up and go have their own life while you wonder what happened to your own.

I don’t know if I’m saying it right but you can do it without giving up yourself and your career/life and still have a well loved and nurtured child.

I wish you luck with your decision.

2014 is shaping up to just be pure awesome.

In May I went to Los Angeles and saw my favorite podcast, Hollywood Babble On, LIVE and got a shoutout from Kevin and Ralph. 

I also went to a special live preview of The Wil Wheaton Project that just happened to be while I was in town. 

We have tickets to go to Rose City Comicon in September where I am totally going to get my geek on.

The week before Rose City? Neil DeGrasse motherfucking Tyson is coming to MY HOME TOWN to speak. Of course I have tickets. It’s going to be amazeballs. 

And tonight I just bought tickets to see Book of Mormon when it comes to Spokane in August. This is probably the most amount of awesome stuff we have ever done in our 10 years together. 

It’s okay not to know all the answers. It’s better to admit our ignorance than to believe answers that might be wrong. Pretending to know everything closes the door to finding out what’s really there.

Neil Degrasse Tyson’s Cosmos: A Spacetime Odyssey

This is a great show, and if you aren’t already, try to find a way to watch it. If you already are or are interested, also check out Dr. Tyson is one of my greatest inspirations.

(via startalkradio)